Over and over again, I have to learn that I can't control everything, no matter how tightly I clench my jaw and will it to be so. I can't control the badly timed fevers, the lingering coughs, the inevitable decision to delay that which has already caused quite a bit of anticipation anxiety. I've never been very good at
going with the flow; the
unknown and
wiggly and
tentative don't fill me with excitement but instead inspire an urge to make orderly lists in tightly controlled, neat printing with a smoothly flowing pen on a crisp page in a brand new notebook. It's not that I can't handle open, unplanned time, or that I always need to be busy--that's not it at all. I just don't like the uncertainty of
out of my hands.
I'm trying. I really am. And when I forget, life reminds me.
Amy, you gotta relax. Some things, you can't control, so you just gotta let it happen however it's going to happen.
Meanwhile, I've been embroidering those loops, a free-wheeling design drawn with a washable fabric marker on a piece of denim destined to be another
headband.
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It's not done yet. Simple, loopy stitching.
Oh, and the phoebe nest under our deck has one creamy, beautiful egg in it so far. I can peek at it from above, through the deck slats. Later I saw mama phoebe resting in the nest. This makes me so happy I don't even have the words.
Linking up with
my creative space, which has a brand-new shiny home.
4 comments:
it's a tough one, that need to control stuff. I think we've all got the desire, in degrees, to want to control our envrionment. I learn over and over again that I can't and I'm better for it, when I manage it.
Gorgeous looping! It's lovely!
Since I spend most of my days working with people (most of whom have problems of one sort or another), I often feel like I have no control. I LIKE to feel in control and having to just let things play out makes me twitchy.
I totally understand that feeling. I too always feel the need to have the things around me in control. It's a comfort thing. If you don't anything please don't hesitate to ask. And I'm loving the embroidery. Your headbands are awesome!
I agree with you, that sometimes you have to teach yourself to relax. And gorgeous headband, it'll look lovely!
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