Thursday, May 10, 2012


Over and over again, I have to learn that I can't control everything, no matter how tightly I clench my jaw and will it to be so. I can't control the badly timed fevers, the lingering coughs, the inevitable decision to delay that which has already caused quite a bit of anticipation anxiety. I've never been very good at going with the flow; the unknown and wiggly and tentative don't fill me with excitement but instead inspire an urge to make orderly lists in tightly controlled, neat printing with a smoothly flowing pen on a crisp page in a brand new notebook. It's not that I can't handle open, unplanned time, or that I always need to be busy--that's not it at all. I just don't like the uncertainty of out of my hands.

I'm trying. I really am. And when I forget, life reminds me. Amy, you gotta relax. Some things, you can't control, so you just gotta let it happen however it's going to happen.

Meanwhile, I've been embroidering those loops, a free-wheeling design drawn with a washable fabric marker on a piece of denim destined to be another headband.

You can click to make this bigger.

It's not done yet. Simple, loopy stitching.

Oh, and the phoebe nest under our deck has one creamy, beautiful egg in it so far. I can peek at it from above, through the deck slats. Later I saw mama phoebe resting in the nest. This makes me so happy I don't even have the words.

Linking up with my creative space, which has a brand-new shiny home.


Bells said...

it's a tough one, that need to control stuff. I think we've all got the desire, in degrees, to want to control our envrionment. I learn over and over again that I can't and I'm better for it, when I manage it.

Gorgeous looping! It's lovely!

Donna Lee said...

Since I spend most of my days working with people (most of whom have problems of one sort or another), I often feel like I have no control. I LIKE to feel in control and having to just let things play out makes me twitchy.

Jen said...

I totally understand that feeling. I too always feel the need to have the things around me in control. It's a comfort thing. If you don't anything please don't hesitate to ask. And I'm loving the embroidery. Your headbands are awesome!

GirlAnachronismE said...

I agree with you, that sometimes you have to teach yourself to relax. And gorgeous headband, it'll look lovely!